Tomorrow is the day Mei-Ling has her surgery. Its difficult to hold her today and not think about what is to take place tomorrow. I keep thinking its not fair for such a tiny one to endure the pain of an operation. Yes, of course I know its needed and how amazing the things the Doctors can do...I am ever so grateful, but I also know its going to hurt her, cause her some pain and that is difficult to deal with. I know that God is able to do fantastic miracles. He can part the sea, create a world, and so much more. He could you know, heal Mei-Ling. Its in His power to do so. Frankly I question Him on why He doesn't do that. I'd be lying to myself and to everyone else if I didn't admit to those feelings and just say I am fine with His decision to NOT do that.
Its just one of those things I just have to put in the "I don't understand" file. It doesn't make me mad or bitter or any of those things and I know all the correct responses about Gods will, God is using medical science, etc. God has done amazing things in Mei-Lings little life, and people have learned to lean on Him for strength and seek a closer walk with Him because of her. But still I wish she did not have to hurt so much at such an early part of her life.
Please keep her in your prayers tomorrow and even today. Pray also for the Doctors and the staff at Childrens hospital, that their hands be guided by a higher power.