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some additional thoughts
This is much like a post script to the last post. I think my last post came out with more emphasis on the idea of people pleasing than I wanted it to. What I meant to convey was more the irony, the ridiculousness of being so often being judged so unfairly. I full well know that there is only one judge I need to be dealing with, but it's just so petty, so small, so unkind to be stood up in front of a firing line and shot for something as simple as finding wisdom in a book by a humble Buddhist monk. I guess that is what bothers me the most. Some folks act as if I was bowing down and kissing the feet of some idol. I just don't understand that kind of behavior and it sorta takes some of the joy of sharing openly away. Does that make sense ? Maybe it is still a bit of my personal struggle left over from being the "non-adventist" kid in a Seventh Day Adventist (substitute just about any denomination) school and being condemned for that, (not by a minority, but the majority). Told I was going to hell because I ate a bologna sandwich, had parents that smoked and went to the store shopping with my mom on Saturday. That sort of thing is hard to get past as a kid. When that sort of judging in the name of Christianity happens now, it makes me think back to my childhood. I have forgiven, but not forgotten how it made me feel. It is my prayer that never happen to another child. It scars, as you can tell by the way I feel. And we are after all the sum of our experiences, some experiences we work our much of our adult life to get over. If I am sensitive about that sort of thing, its because I want people to know what they are doing to others by judging, by condeming, or being filled with fear.
This is much like a post script to the last post. I think my last post came out with more emphasis on the idea of people pleasing than I wanted it to. What I meant to convey was more the irony, the ridiculousness of being so often being judged so unfairly. I full well know that there is only one judge I need to be dealing with, but it's just so petty, so small, so unkind to be stood up in front of a firing line and shot for something as simple as finding wisdom in a book by a humble Buddhist monk. I guess that is what bothers me the most. Some folks act as if I was bowing down and kissing the feet of some idol. I just don't understand that kind of behavior and it sorta takes some of the joy of sharing openly away. Does that make sense ? Maybe it is still a bit of my personal struggle left over from being the "non-adventist" kid in a Seventh Day Adventist (substitute just about any denomination) school and being condemned for that, (not by a minority, but the majority). Told I was going to hell because I ate a bologna sandwich, had parents that smoked and went to the store shopping with my mom on Saturday. That sort of thing is hard to get past as a kid. When that sort of judging in the name of Christianity happens now, it makes me think back to my childhood. I have forgiven, but not forgotten how it made me feel. It is my prayer that never happen to another child. It scars, as you can tell by the way I feel. And we are after all the sum of our experiences, some experiences we work our much of our adult life to get over. If I am sensitive about that sort of thing, its because I want people to know what they are doing to others by judging, by condeming, or being filled with fear.
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Don't worry about people disagreeing with you. It would be a boring world if we all thought alike, and we would never learn anything new.
Spirituality is a personal venture, and it should be.