Thoughts on the Day

You would think today would have been a very stressful day for our family, with the news of Melanie loosing her job, but for some reason we all have felt a deep sense of peace about it all.
We all feel like there will be a silver or perhaps even a golden lining to this ordeal. All of us feel that something better will come from this. We have no idea what that might be yet, but we all feel the same way and independently came to the same feeling.
Melanie spent some time in tears last night as you might expect, but today she felt hopeful.
There is an element of the unknown, like stepping off a pier wondering how deep the water below is but with that everyone seems to feel that they will be able to swim just fine.
Much of the afternoon I spent searching on line for options for her, and came up with a few. Tonight Casi took her to a place of business to fill out some applications.
Melanie has such brittle diabetes, the low blood sugars she gets just come on so fast and are so low, the kind of low that renders her unconscious, we think she may just qualify as disabled because of that, and if she does qualify, then there are a few more options open to her.
No matter what, the sun will shine tomorrow, rain will fall at times, but there are umbrellas for rainy days. Family and friends support you when things are dark looking on the horizon, and life goes on. Some how we will find a way to make this all work. We are optimists, but not to the point that we don't see the possibilities on both sides of the coin.
Emery and I stood outside tonight, side by side watching the sun set. Its the first beautiful sunset we have seen in a while. Most nights lately, the sunsets have had very little drama to them, just the sun sinking in a yellowish blue sky. It felt like a sign tonight.
Yesterday when I was lighting incense for each family member and saying a prayer for each one, Melanie's incense did an odd thing, it would not light, but I am stubborn and made it catch but then it fell out of the incense burner, still stubborn about it I put it back in its place, out of the 12 or so incense sticks, hers was the only one to not burn down. It went out and never would burn. It made me feel like something was going to happen that was not so good. It felt like a sign, but not a good one. This morning when I lit another for her, prayed for her, it burned brighter than all the others and burned steady, that was a sign to me also. A very good sign that better things are on the way. I feel sure that things will work out with all the prayers going up for her, from so many people, of so many spiritual paths.
Thanks everyone for the kind thoughts for Melanie and the suggestions.

Tonights sky, gray clouds with golden lining !