My dear sweet husband came home and I spilled my woes to him and he said he LOVES my short hair, loves me in my new Yoga pants, and thinks we are moving on to a new direction that is good for us. So, now I feel much better. Maybe I will even pour myself a glass of wine now.
You cannot imagine the guilt one can feel while parting from a plain church. Oh my, everything seems to be a sin of some sort and I still feel like a chicken when I see someone from the community and want to hide. Ashamed of my slacks or my short uncovered hair. I wonder if they heard my radio on in the car. I suppose with my guilt, "this too shall pass." But guilt is a powerful tool, and I know this from childhood too as my mother knew just how to use it to her advantage ! Its gunna take some time to be comfortable in my new shoes. Maybe I should go buy some high heels !!!!!
So bear with me dear cyber friends as I stretch and grow and change. I feel a bit like a rubber band right now being pulled in a few directions.
As you may have gathered, I am an open book. No secrets, nothing that is off limits in the sharing scheme of things. Blogging is a journal for me, that I just happen to share. So, now back to the drawing board while I "find myself" what a hippy phrase but it fits.
I will light my little lamp, and loose myself in an old volume of Emerson. Surely that will help with the confusion ????
By the way, this weekend I will have someone take a picture of me with my new "do". Sort and sassy, that is what it is.
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Hugs, Jeanne