This is a difficult post for me to write. Today at the Doctors, they couldn't find a heartbeat for Melanie's tiny baby. She was 11 weeks along today. I saw my child devastated by grief and lost hopes. I felt my own loss and my own helplessness in trying to "make it all better" for my youngest daughter. Thoughts kept running through my mind of stories I had heard of miracles when a baby's heart beat could not be heard, then when they went to do a D&C, the baby's heart was beating strong, a miracle. I keep hoping for that sort of miracle, but know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God is in control. I know that things in this imperfect world of ours can just go wrong. I have miscarried, I know the pain, but seeing my own child so grief stricken breaks my heart beyond words. I saw her tears falling onto Mei-Lings back as she held her so close, so grateful for the blessing of that dear baby in her arms. Life is precious. I thought about the 19 year old that sat next to me in the waiting room, pregnant with #3, her oldest child 4 years old. She was complaining about being pregnant, said her children ruined her life. Yes, it seems unfair to me, but life isn't about what is and is not fair. Its about trusting that God will lead us through the dark, stormy nights and bring us into the dawn of hope. Please say a little prayer for Melanie and Casi. They are hurting so much right now.
Pat, I have all of you in my prayers right now... I am so sorry for you all's loss. Praying that you can feel God's love and peace during this difficult time.
I am so very sorry for the loss of this baby that was already so loved and anticipated. You will all be in my prayers for strength and understanding during this very difficult time.
Sweet Patty, Words can't ever express the depth of our sadness when we lose a child and a dream at the same time. We will be praying for a cloud of comfort to surround your family. How thankful I am that Melanie has your deep and unending love.
Oh, Patty, I am so sorry to hear the sad news about the baby. Melanie and Casi have had so much heartache, and don't deserve more. I know you are hurting, too, but will be strong for them. It is wonderful that you are such a close family. Praying for your family.
We comfort others whereby we are comforted...I pray for the broken hearts that find it hard to understand and yet hold His hand. That His love will embrace Melanie and Casi in this difficult time....many words could be said but I know at this time they just need loving arms and a time to mourn...strength to you Patty...just enjoy your blog so much...Maine
This is the first time I've visited your site. Melanie and Casi are so much in my thoughts and will continue to be in my prayers. I do believe that God leads us through the darkest of times and He is there with all of you now, just as that beautiful baby is with Him.
Oh dear Patty I am so sorry for all of you! And sorry too for the pregnant 19 year old and her children. That is the kind of thing that was so hard for me not being able to have children and suffering through so many miscarriages before getting very far along. I will keep you guys in my prayers.
They will be in my deepest prayers. I am so sorry also for your loss. I also had a difficult day caring for my aunt who fell and broke her hip. There are so many difficulties and heartbreak in life for so many. Some people are confused why God allows things, others look to God for comfort. It is a mystery, but maybe we become more of what God wants of us as we go through these times.
Anonymous said…
I'm so so sorry. May your family find comfort in God and each other.
Such sad news this morning, May God comfort & give you peace. I love the words to this hymn:
What e'er my God ordains is right; Holy His will abideth. I will be still what e'er He doth, And follow where He leadeth. He is my God, Though dark my road, He holds me that I shall not fall; And so to Him I leave it all.
What e'er my God ordains is right; He never will deceive me. He leads me by the proper path, I know He will not leave me. I take content, What He hath sent, His hand can turn my greifs away, And patiently I wait His day.
What e'er my God ordains is right; Though now this cup, in drinking, May bitter seem to my faint heart, I take it now unshrinking; My God is true, Each morn anew Sweet comfort yet shall fill my heart, And pain and sorrow shall depart.
What e'er my God ordains is right; Here shall my stand be taken. Though sorrow, need, or death be mine, Yet am I not forsaken; My Father's care is round me there, He holds me that I shall not fall; And so to Him I leave it all.
Oh what sad news to read... I feel deeply for Melanie and Casi's loss, been there too... warmest hugs to all of you, and my prayers going your way, as well as the young mother's ; sometimes things CAN seem cruelly ironic and unfair.
Oh Patty, how terribly sad for all of you. Melanie and Casi have been through such a lot for such young couple and my heart grieves for their loss. May G-d give them strength, and you and Emery as well.
As for the young girl in the doctor's office, those poor little innocent children. May G-d also watch over them and give them love.
So very sorry to hear of your family's heartache. You will all be in my prayers.
Anonymous said…
I am so very, very sorry for your loss. You are all in my thoughts and prayers. This happened to me, also at 11 weeks, and I went on to have two healthy babies later on. I pray that Melanie and Casi hold Mei Ling close now, and know that the Lord will give your family peace and healing in time.
They are in my prayers and in my heart. We can only trust God to make all right. We can only rely on Him. I am so sorry for everyone, you too....This is a family sorrow.
I missed a few days blogging, and was not aware of your heartbreaking loss...I am so very sorry..we experienced the same stillbirth with our daughter at 22 weeks...and it was so very heartbreaking..I am praying for Melanie and Casi..as they gain strength form God to accept this loss in their lives...and for you as you morn the loss of a grandchild... {{Hugs}} Mimi
Anonymous said…
I am so sorry for your loss! I will be praying for your daughter.. such a hard thing to fight through!
This is a difficult post for me to write. Today at the Doctors, they couldn't find a heartbeat for Melanie's tiny baby. She was 11 weeks along today. I saw my child devastated by grief and lost hopes. I felt my own loss and my own helplessness in trying to "make it all better" for my youngest daughter. Thoughts kept running through my mind of stories I had heard of miracles when a baby's heart beat could not be heard, then when they went to do a D&C, the baby's heart was beating strong, a miracle. I keep hoping for that sort of miracle, but know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God is in control. I know that things in this imperfect world of ours can just go wrong. I have miscarried, I know the pain, but seeing my own child so grief stricken breaks my heart beyond words. I saw her tears falling onto Mei-Lings back as she held her so close, so grateful for the blessing of that dear baby in her arms. Life is precious. I thought about the 19 year old that sat next to me in the waiting room, pregnant with #3, her oldest child 4 years old. She was complaining about being pregnant, said her children ruined her life. Yes, it seems unfair to me, but life isn't about what is and is not fair. Its about trusting that God will lead us through the dark, stormy nights and bring us into the dawn of hope. Please say a little prayer for Melanie and Casi. They are hurting so much right now.
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How sad for the children of that young girl... they deserve better.
Patricia
I am so sorry for you all's loss.
Praying that you can feel God's love and peace during this difficult time.
You will all be in my prayers for strength and understanding during this very difficult time.
I will send up many prayers for everyone, including that young lady at the doctor's office...
Grace & Peace
Words can't ever express the depth of our sadness when we lose a child and a dream at the same time. We will be praying for a cloud of comfort to surround your family. How thankful I am that Melanie has your deep and unending love.
Stay close and love.My prayers are with you
I know you are hurting, too, but will be strong for them.
It is wonderful that you are such a close family.
Praying for your family.
God Bless Patty!
Sharon
What e'er my God ordains is right;
Holy His will abideth.
I will be still what e'er He doth,
And follow where He leadeth.
He is my God, Though dark my road,
He holds me that I shall not fall;
And so to Him I leave it all.
What e'er my God ordains is right;
He never will deceive me.
He leads me by the proper path,
I know He will not leave me.
I take content, What He hath sent, His hand can turn my greifs away,
And patiently I wait His day.
What e'er my God ordains is right;
Though now this cup, in drinking,
May bitter seem to my faint heart,
I take it now unshrinking;
My God is true, Each morn anew
Sweet comfort yet shall fill my heart, And pain and sorrow shall depart.
What e'er my God ordains is right;
Here shall my stand be taken.
Though sorrow, need, or death be mine, Yet am I not forsaken;
My Father's care is round me there,
He holds me that I shall not fall;
And so to Him I leave it all.
Please know that I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
Blessings
Linda
As for the young girl in the doctor's office, those poor little innocent children. May G-d also watch over them and give them love.
Jackie
May God be with you all,
Annie
{{Hugs}}
Mimi