Showing posts from March, 2008

Discovering Who We Are

I tend to think that we live our lives in search of who we are meant to be, what is our purpose. In learning what our purpose is, we have to know who we are, what we stand for and what are deepest beliefs are.
Our purpose in life changes at times. When my children were at home, my purpose was so clear, so well defined. My purpose was, along with my husband, raise children who would be a blessing and not a curse, not only to us, but to the world at large. We didn't want them to just "not get into trouble" we wanted them to be contributing citizens, people that would make a difference in the lives around them. We wanted them to be secure, kind, thoughtful, innovative, independent yet to know that life always involves interaction with others. My purpose in life was all about helping my children become adults that would not make mistakes that would hurt them for the rest of their lives. We chose to raise them in the plain world, minimizing the influence of things we wanted to…

All is Well

What a blessing, the funnel clouds never reached the ground in our town. The sirens sounded and the shelter we are supposed to head to was right in the thick of the worst weather. It's not more than a mile from our house, but I had no desire to head right towards the wall cloud. I should have known things were going to get bad because all the animals retreated into their barns about 30 minutes before the storms arrived. Not a critter to be seen....always a good indicator to watch the sky.
I hopped in the car and headed in the opposite direction and went to Emery's office. On the way home after the all clear was given, I stopped along the road to take a few pictures of the Indian Paint brush in bloom. Yes, I did take my camera with me when I heard the sirens sound ! I am not sure if more storms are heading our way or not. I am hoping not.
Some additional good news, Casi heard from the unemployment office, the verdict for the hearing was in Casi's favor. There are rules t…

Tornado on the way

keep us in your prayers, tornado on the way

Oatmeal Coconut Bars

We love using Sunspire chocolate and Carob products (sounds like a commercial). They just simply taste good and are not full of ingredients you don't want in your body. I wanted something sweet for dessert tonight and these Oatmeal Coconut Bars are just perfect. I had the carob chips on hand, so that is what I used. The chocolate chips would work great too.This is an easy treat to make...

Oatmeal Coconut Bars
1 1/2 cups uncooked oatmeal
2 Tablespoons melted butter or vegetable oil
1/4 cup maple syrup

I cup carob baking chips
1/2 cup chopped walnuts of pecans
1 cup shredded coconut
1/4 cup maple syrup
1 teaspoon vanilla

Preheat oven to 350 degrees.
Mix oatmeal, maple syrup and butter or oil together thoroughly. Press mixture evenly over bottom of lightly oiled 8 inch square baking pan.
Stir together carob chips, nuts, coconut, maple syrup and vanilla. Spread evenly over oatmeal crust. Bake for 25 minutes, until golden brown. Remove from oven and let stand until cool…

Monday Gratitudes

Each and every day there is something to be grateful for, to count as a blessing. Marci at Down On The Farm hosts a Count Your Blessings Monday, its a great way to start off the week. this Monday I am so thankful for... Mei-Lings restored health A traffic free drive to Ft Worth this morning That Emery is such a gentle man and a good father. For Melissa's kindness For Melanie's strength For Stevens enthusiasm For a new skirt that has a garden print fabric in it For bluebonnets and indian paint brush For flavored agave nectar in my Pero this morning That the chicks and hens are getting along fine Peppermint growing for meadow tea this summer For memories For the simplicity of my life For iris in bloom For music For clouds dipped in the gold of sunset and so much more !
chicks in the hen house the beauty of weeds, weeds are only misplaced flowers ! The neighbors mean cat, it constantly fights my cats. He is a big cat too. a vulture blackberries growing under the back steps

Natures Beauty

After the long winter, God in His mercy fills the earth with beauty to profound its hard to describe. Winter has its own beauty and I for one love the purity and peacefulness of a fresh fallen snow, but spring is vibrant. It is as though the land is decorated for a great party. Pinks, blues, oranges, lavender, purple, and so many more colors dot the landscape as wild flowers fill up the prairie. Fruit trees stand out against the horizon with explosions of color.
I saw my first Indian Paint Brushes and Bluebonnets yesterday. A gift from God. Soon I will be heading off daily to my favorite wild flower spots to snap pictures of all the colors.
God is a God of love and of mercy. He gives good gifts to us and strength to handle the results of sin in the world. He carries us when our burdens seem too heavy.
I love Romans 1:20 For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from …

Having Dibs on God

Last week there was a comment left on my blog that made me smile and then sigh. The person refereed to Christ as if it was their Savior and not my Savior. That somehow because I quote the dalai lama etc that I can't possibly have her savior. And that my having posts that spoke of the Dalai Lama, Mother Teresa or had a picture of my Quan Yin statue or prayer beads made it certain that I could not be part of her exclusive club of believers to which she claims membership. Not sure how she has seen into my heart but I suspect her particular club has a very limited number of members since we all for the most part have very individual aspects of our belief systems, even if we don't voice them in public for fear of being shunned in some way or another, in addition most have travelled a few paths that probably don't meat her criteria in all aspects, Some, not me, as you can see by my posts, have learned to keep their mouth shut regarding their wonderings, (the things we wonder abo…

Earth Hour, hardly noticed

Last night's Earth Hour nearly slipped by without any notice due in part to the way we live. Emery was busy with some outside chores until nearly 9 p.m. No electricity used. The days light fading in the sky but it was not dark out. It was humid, which seems to carry any light from near or far. I was cooking some eggs on the stove for a late supper, no electricity there.
The lantern light seemed very ordinary. The house was silent, except for the steady ticking of the mantle clock. Nothing out of the ordinary there. We chose long ago to walk this earth with a tender footprint for lots of reasons. Health is a big motivator for us and we feel that being surrounded by electrical current 24/7 is probably not the best for your body. We also avoid preservatives and chemicals in general in our food as much as possible simply because its been proven to not be good for you. So we opt to grow a big garden, have fruit and nut trees. And in other areas of our life, we just simply chose th…

Some Fun Today

I had some fun today. Sewed some on a quilt for a wee little girl and worked on a dress for that same little one. The sleeves will be puffy, just right for a little girl.Our wild flowers are starting to bloom !

Earth Hour

Don't Forget.... Earth Hour tonight.

We will be sitting by lamplight, enjoying playing dominos.

Improving Every Day

It's so nice having Melanie and Casi live just down the street. Makes it easy to stop in for a minute or two and see how Miss Mei-Ling Fah is doing. If you didn't know, you would have no idea she had 2 surgeries this week. She was happy playing with her blocks and talking up a storm.
Melanie had a bad asthma attack at work yesterday. She was working alone, but by the grace of God, two paramedics happened to be in the store and took her right out to the ambulance. We never like to see her working alone as she is a brittle diabetic but never thought about her asthma as its never been bad like it was yesterday. It was just one more miracle that those two paramedics just happened to be there when she needed them so badly. Since our town is small and most people know one another, they were the same men that took Mei-Ling by ambulance just a few weeks ago. Melanie is fine today, thank God.

The Beauty of A Quiet Walk

Even when my children were small, daily walks were common. Often times we would make them part of our science project and combine that with an English assignment. Writing about what they saw, felt, sensed and what they had learned about some item, and now, no children in tow, I still think about what my senses are experiencing on my walks or simply listen for that still small voice of God.
I am in awe of the wisteria by the chicken house, it is so fragrant and so vibrant in color. Today it was alive with bee's at work. I got right up in between the branches, bees above me, beside me and below me. If they were annoyed by my presence they never let on. By my feet, the two ducklings enjoyed their first day of freedom and you could tell they felt a bit overwhelmed and followed me or the rooster around as if we were their parents. The barn cats were trying to decide if they were meant as a meal or not.... a few pecks from those able duck bills and they got it figured out pretty fast. Th…

The Birthday Present

I promised I would share with you what Emery is giving me as a birthday present....yes, its way early, over 4 months early but I am not complaining one bit. We have a tiny creek, oh really just a trickle in the rainiest of times. Its a place you have to hop over and when you are carrying feed sacks or such, its not all that nice. I have dreamed of having a bridge over this spot for years. There have been planks laid over it or a couple of old boards, but never a bridge. Now that will change.... I will soon be able to sing, "over the river and through the woods" when I go out to do chores. A bit exaggerated, but none the less a fun mental picture. Just have to wait for a rainy day to have it delivered, that way they can find where the tiny wee creek is
Ulrich Barn Builders , where my husband works, sells these wonderful bridges along with so many other wonderful things. Wonder if I can talk him into one of those nice log cabins they have for sale for a Christmas present : )

Friday Morning Ramble

The air is heavy this morning, full of humidity. The darkness of early morning is slowly giving way to light without any sunshine as the sky is covered in clouds. Crickets are singing as is some rather robust frog nearby. The early birds have joined in the chorus with an occasional solo part from our rooster. It feels almost strange that I can stay home all day today. No trip to the hospital needed, for which we are so thankful.
There is a part of me that says, "ahhhh a day in which I can do nothing" but then I think about the projects I have wanted to work on and the much needed attention to the house. I never find it easy to just sit still. The clothesline poles need a fresh coat of paint and the new line we ordered has come in, line that doesn't sag with the weight of the clothes. There are other projects as well that need some consideration, like introducing the chicks to the hens and finding something to do with the fast growing ducklings that now make quite a mess o…

Count It All Joy

My favorite passage in the Bible is James 1:2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4 Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. To consider trials joy is not a normal reaction. It seems to go against our nature, but it is not out of our reach. We can learn to understand this concept and to embrace it and hold it close to our hearts for the very truth and depth of it.
This past year has had many trials for our family, but through them all, there has been growth, and for me personally, I have come to find rest through these hard things, in what I do believe. It has been a year of questioning and searching, with the answers found in the trials of the rocky narrow path, not on the smooth and wide path. I sort of feel that for myself, I have come full circle. Ending up just about where I started from. But I sought after God w…

Mei-Ling Is A Happy Girl

Mei-Ling was showing just how happy she was to be going home.

Simply...Its a miracle

Mei-Ling is home. The doctor was surprised at how well she was doing when he came in to see her this morning, so he removed her catheter. He had expected to leave it in until Friday. Her lab work came back perfect and Mei-Ling reached up for him to pick her up, and she waved bye-bye to him when he left the room. He calls her the little princess. When he came back in the late afternoon, he asked if Melanie and Casi would like to take her home ! What a joyous moment for everyone, except the nurses said they were all going to miss her so much. For all that she has been through, she has the sweetest personality and never seems to be fussy. And her smile just wins everyone over. She is one happy baby to be in her own home. Amazingly, she has been crawling, and acts as if nothing happened to her. Last night right after she got back from surgery, she had some pain medication but nothing after that first dose. She will have her stitches out Tuesday if all goes well. What a little miracle this…

A New Day and Some Reflection

This morning I woke and heard the birds singing, and felt the breeze on my face as I went about my chores. I saw flowers in bloom and smelled their sweet fragrance. I took in a deep breath and realized that for the past couple days, I hardly felt like I was doing more than holding my breath.
Mei-Ling had pain and muscle spasms last night so they gave her morphine. Melanie sounded so worn and tired last night when I spoke to her on the phone before going to bed. I was thinking about our family through all this. Melissa finding it so hard to be so far away, we talk several times during the day. I am in deep appreciation of my cell phone and glad that last year we decided to get one. Our children have called numerous times each day, checking on the status of the baby or seeing if they could do something for Melanie and Casi. Steven and Priscilla have brought meals to Melanie and Casi, and slipped money in their hand for additional meals. Melissa as only a sister can do, has been a point …

News about Mei-Ling

The operation took a bit over 4 hours. They actually unhooked the ureter from her bladder,
re-sized it and then reconnected it. They cleaned out all the deflux material that had been used in September. They also added a stint from her kidney to the bladder that will be removed in a couple months. While they were doing the surgery they did some looking around at her reproductive system. She has only one ovary, one Fallopian tube and no uterus. We were thankful there was at least one ovary to help with the hormone situation later on in life.
By 8 tonight she was back in her room, just a couple of painful groans from this tiny one had Melanie in tears, which I fully understand. Mei-Ling is on a pain as needed order for which we are all very grateful.
She will have her catheter in until at least Friday. Not sure yet as to when she will be able to come home.
Casi had his over the phone hearing with his former employer and unemployment. We know God is in control and fe…


Matthew 7: 9-11 tells us....."Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him ! " There is a lost said in these few words. God's love for us is a powerful thing and sometimes when things don't go the way we want or expect then we question if we are really loved. Only we forget that somethings happen just because we live in a less than perfect world. When we had a goat give birth to a kid with many health issues, we never once questioned why God allowed it to happen, and we never blamed ourselves or the mother goat for the kids birth defects. We just knew "those things happen". You can see where I am going with this I am sure. With Mei-Lings health issues or even Melanie being diabetic, we don't blame God. We don't think He has ser…

A Very Long Day and not such good news

This is not the post I was wanting to write.... Mei-Ling had her surgery at 8 in the morning and it lasted for 2 hours. They were not able to insert the stint, so it was by no means a success. They did scrape out some of the deflux material that they used in the first surgery, hoping to allow more urine to flow but the Doctor was not optimistic about that helping much. It seems her body was having some sort of reaction to the material used in the deflux which is a rare thing.They did more blood tests and they just confirmed that what was done today accomplished nothing. Tomorrow afternoon they will do a much more invasive surgery to correct the size of the ureter. They will also insert a tube from the kidney to the bladder as a sort of precautionary measure until things are back to normal for Mei-Ling. That tube will stay in for a couple of months and then have to be removed. While they are in there doing the surgery they will also check out some other misplaced organs to see whats wh…

Surgery Tomorrow

The Doctor just came in to see Melanie and explain the plan of action. Mei-Ling is to have surgery at 7 in the morning. They found a blockage in her ureter that is not allowing the urine to flow properly from her kidney to her bladder. Maybe some blockage from the surgery done last fall. They will put a tube from her kidney to her bladder. Poor little one was so distraught from her tests today. She fell asleep in my arms and I ended up rocking her for over 3 hours.
When she woke up she was all smiles and silliness.
She will need lots of prayer as will Melanie and Casi.